(jann castor, 9th of February, 1997)
BLISS
ACT 1
Wanting to love you
is a premonition of bliss
although bliss is not divinity
love is only a strive for perfection
that does not exist
in only one lifetime
there are many
and all them are sublime
having to be experienced
relived
re-experienced
touched again
in a circular movement
without an end
without a reason
without the without
ACT II
we journey
through lifetimes
with an empty womb
no angels
no protection
no peace.
or is it just us
forgotten
neglected
yearning
unloved
longing
craving
and dying
I tend to disagree with Gods
on a subject of immortality
(they banned me from Heavens
for I could not praise them)
ACT III
So, in the name of heresy
and what we seek
I asked once a little boy:
"what would you like for Christmas?"
He said:
"What I want is what Gods cannot give me."
I shivered not being able to ask more.
ACT IV
Walking away I felt the void
reinventing the questions
that I have forgotten to ask.
It is no to be answered
what you have asked for
(I said to myself)
your wanting for bliss
your strive for perfection
and to live again
remains in domain
that is defined by infinity
Mind is Infinity
and a mathematical equation.
ACT V
That little boy (I forgot to add)
Was me.
copyright Jann C. Castor ©
1998
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