(jann c castor 9th of January 1998)


My umbilicus cord
is like s film strip 
disjoining me from my dreams and my desires.

I am naked
not a man and not a woman

I am a child.

Every frame is filled with my candor 
and I watch it every time 
with the same sense of fear and felicity.

There is no hurt 
for there was no past -

just one frame after another 
counting the time

counting and counting

I am watching me

And I laugh

and then I cry.

But I watch it again and again -

As if I wanted to turn the clock back

Back to my innocence. 

copyright  Jann C. Castor  © 1998